Hope everyone is having a bangin’ day. Never in a million years did I think I would ever start a blog & yet here I am. It’s gotten to the point where I couldn’t fall asleep last night & I just wanted to get this thing started. So if it turns out to be sh*t, you better believe I’ll delete it so we never have to relive this moment again.
First, I want to start off by saying that within every one of my blogs (trying to be hopeful) I will always speak the truth. I think a lot of my friends can agree that I’m brutally honest & will speak my mind no matter the situation. If you’ve been lucky enough to be in my presence for even five minutes, you’ll quickly learn that I don’t really have a filter and I’ll willingly embarrass myself without a care in the world. With that being said, I want this blog to be a place where you can find some humor but also have something to relate to.
I want to dive into my experience with quarantine & what I've learned over time. A few months ago when everything started happening with the lovely Corona that we all know and love, I thought it would be the perfect time to make some improvements in my life. I went through a phase of downloading all the workout apps & getting the free trial. I made an attempt to eat healthier, which for me just meant adding spinach to every meal. I was whitening my teeth, doing face masks, hair masks…pretty much any mask you could think of. After a while I started asking myself what exactly am I trying to improve? Do I even have a reason for any of this? Am I trying to impress someone? In the beginning it was because I didn’t have much to do and I thought this would be a perfect time to practice self - love but after a while it became clear to me that I wasn’t doing any of these “improvements” for myself. I realized that I was distracting myself from everything that was happening around me.
Learning that I wasn’t going to have a graduation was something that I ignored. All of my friends were crushed at the fact they weren’t going to walk across the stage & get that piece of paper they worked so hard for. It wasn’t until the morning of my “graduation” that I really took the time to process what was happening. I was getting all dolled up just to sit on the couch to watch Alicia Keys play the piano & try to give a motivational speech. Don’t get me wrong she’s a bad a** b*tch & I love her, but it was the most anticlimactic thing I’ve ever experienced. I’ve come across people that have said “Oh you didn’t have a graduation? Well that’s unfortunate, but you know a lot of people have it worse than you.” Well Karen, you can take a seat because the Class of 2020, whether you’re in high school or in college, you never want your achievements to go unnoticed & that’s exactly what was happening. I realized that your success, big or small should never just be brushed under the rug.
After the big shebang with Alicia Keys I drove back to Dirty Jers. Living at home was never something I was concerned about. I love my parents dearly & quiet honestly they never bother me. But let me tell you…my attitude changed from a happy Southern girl to a mopey b*tch who wanted nothing to do with anything. I was so sad at the fact I wasn’t living in Savannah anymore, I wasn’t surrounded by my best friends, & I couldn’t just leave the house without someone asking me where I was going every time they heard my keys jingle. The adjustment was rough, especially because I was fully aware of my actions & I didn’t know how to get out of this weird funk. Long and behold, I went back to practicing self – love but this time I wanted to do it right. I ordered this book called, Girl Stop Apologizing, written by Rachel Hollis. I swear to you, it’s a game changer. She talks about the different excuses women make as to why they aren't pursing their goals in life, she touches on the subject of breaking bad habits, & she even talks you through a daily routine that will help you be successful. Personally, my goal was to be healthy overall. I wanted to start eating clean and not give into DQ runs twice a week. I wanted to actually put the time into working out & not just doing one set of abs then calling it a day. I wanted to stop making up excuses. In order to get closer to my goal I needed to make some adjustments in my everyday routine.
Here's what I did:
I started meditating every morning before work
I started drinking a sh*t ton of water
I started a workout program
Instead of wasting time on social media I started reading
At the end of each day I write down 5 things I'm grateful for
The last one is key people! Once you start getting in the habit of writing down the things you're grateful for you'll slowly start noticing what brings you happiness in your everyday life (not trying to be cheesy but it's true).
Lastly, I got in the habbit of writing everyday, which lead me here. A few of my friends have blogs & it was always something that I admired because they're out in the open, everyone is reading their thoughts. My old roommate from freshman year, Amanda, has been blogging even before I met her & I always thought it was something different. What I admire about her is that she's authentic & that's pretty evident in her writing. She talks about some real sh*t that all girls can relate to & that's something I wanted to incorporate within my blog. Lauren, who is my best friend of all time, recently just started blogging as well & I can see an immidiate change in her energy. I can tell this was something that helped her grow as an individual & honestly it's really exciting to see her be open with complete strangers. In Hollis's book she makes a great point that just because someone starts something doesn't mean you can't join in on the fun. So here I am joining the blog train. I’ve always had the thought of creating one but I questioned if people would even be interested, & for the first time ever, I worried what others would think. “Oh you have a blog now? You’re one of those” yet again Karen, take a seat. I am here, drinking my wine, writing away & quiet honestly I’m excited about it. So cheers to trying new things & not giving a flying f*ck!
Congratulations, you made it to the end of my very first blog post! Please feel free to reach out to me if you have any feedback, but if you don’t have anything positive than I suggest you take a seat with Karen(:
Amanda's Instagram: justmands
Lauren's Instagram: laurenkittle